Today, at our church, we celebrated womanhood. We celebrated mothers and prayed over all the women present. On this day, I still have very mixed emotions...it is hard to explain. I always struggled with it before, because I never had children... but now, it seems like I struggle with it because I've never "had" children. I mean I still feel the pain. I feel bad when other women like me are excluded from things like "Mother's Day" and Mother-Daughter banquets... I hate those days, really. AND NOW, I think of the Mother that had to give up the opportunity to raise these beautiful children for whatever reason...and I feel guilty and sad. What does she feel like today? Does that make sense to any other APs?
This Mother's Day was a little different than last year. This week the children had decided they wanted me to buy a dress. When I discussed this with Ben, he agreed that he would watch the boys while Tatiana went with me to help me pick out a dress. So, on Saturday, when I was about to drop off the boys with Ben at the church, Andrew made a comment that Tatiana should get a dress, too! Tatiana said, "I'm not a mother!" Andrew said, "You're a girl!" Inside, I'm like, "Yes, you are a mother, already! God put that in your heart...that nuturing spirit that you have, so caring and loving! Yes, I want to get that girl a dress, too! It's OUR day!"
That may sound weird to some of you, but I DO BELIEVE that God puts that nuturing spirit, the spirit of a mother in every woman. Now, don't get me wrong, I do not believe everyone acts in that spirit. I believe there are hard, cold, abusive women that should never parent. However, I do believe that somewhere deep, down that beautiful thing God put within them lies dormant; it is concealed, because that woman has possibly been hurt, neglected, or abused herself, and just is not able to show that love to another in a healthy way. I DO BELIEVE there are a number of beautiful, caring women that are unable to conceive that have a strong desire and passion to parent, and those women, well, they are usually already mentoring and mothering other children all around them. I DO BELIEVE that those women make an impact on the world around them and the world beyond. I BELIEVE that we NEED those women to help us who have children at home to parent. We do! To think, we can do this solo, is a joke! We need each other! So, to me... today, this day, is to honor EVERY woman...whether she has given birth, adopted, or just mentors, whether she is young or old, whether she is the mentor or the one being mentored... God has chosen them. He chose them to make a difference!
HE CHOSE YOU! GOD BLESS!
3 comments:
You're an awesome Mom, Wendi! And you and Tatiana look beautiful! What a sweet Mother's Day celebration :).
So well said on all levels!
Amen on the mixed feelings commentary--you already know how I feel! :) And as an Adoptive Parent, I totally agree.
On another note, Tatiana is so beautiful. You can see that soft nurturing spirit you speak of radiate from her in all of her pictures. What a blessing to her and to you.
If we must be confused/annoyed/sad/pick your emotion on this yearly Woman's Day, at least we are now blessed with amazing young daughters with whom we can now celebrate.
Great Post, Wendi!
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